Angelmom2001's Rant Session

so i break down on the parkway today, on my way to take the father in law to the doctor and spend some time with a friend(male friend) and the van dies. so i call various people, the friend being one of them- who doesn't call me back. now i know he knows i broke down and he hasn't bothered calling me yet to see if i am even alright!!! i think i have a right to be annoyed. a bit pissed even!!! anyway so what do i do about it? call him? act like i'm not pissed when he gets around to calling me? even his mom called me to see if everything was ok!! not answer his calls? i don't know anyway- thats all for now

a friend of mine recently summed it up for me- she said " the universe hates you" nothing ever seems to go right. since my last post my life has become more soap operaesque- don't think thats even a word- oh well.... anyway my father in law moved in right after easter. my sister in law started a fight with me on easter- calling me ever name you can think of and more, suggesting that i have stolen her kids from her! honestly they would probably be in foster care after all the shit she's pulled. anyhoo- i hurt my arm bad- i think i may have torn my rotator cuff, but with no insurance, i'm not positive. oh yeah, i got laid off at the end of april!!!! so- my marriage is worse than ever- and i think i may be falling in love with someone else too and i don't know what to do about it. then you have the "friends" who ended up on a bowling team with my ex- and somehow thru them and others- his live journal is no longer accessible to me- cutting off information that could prove to be important at some point because of my daughter.
so in a nut shell- i am miserable, there is only one person who makes me smile or laugh and they aren't around enough,i am falling for a person who i could probably never be with, my marriage sucks and shows no signs of getting better and i have in laws living with me- sounds like HELL doesn't it!!!!! well- thats it for now i have bitched enough

well- this past sat. i had a car accident and totalled our family car!! yes everyone is all right. only i was in the car. on a different note my relationship has quickly gone south. i'm pretty sure i want a divorce- but being alone terrifies me. i will do it if i have to- anyway- work still sucks- i still need a better job and financially i am almost ruined- so much for being a good provoder, right. my husband now does nothing!! no school- no work- no housework- nothing!!!! i am fed up with him and have told him so- i have asked him for a separation but i don't think he thought i was serious!! i realize he is having a hard time with his depression and, our finances and his family but what the hell. i am fed up.

well- yet another day at work. overworked, underpaid ya know the drill. anyway my house is a wreck and i am having rebecca's 5th b-day in 2 weeks. i just hope i can get it done. although i have desire to. then again i was going to start a diet this week and i can't find the desire for that either. i had a serious talk w/ the hubby and we are trying to work out our problems- but i'm not sure if we will be able to. he still hasn't called his uncle to borrow money so we don't totally drown in debt- but it is already starting one of my credit cards got cancelled today- one of my favorite ones- even after i paid it in full. when they refused to reinstate it i lost it and broke my cordless phone and put the kids to bed at 7pm. they are all quite unhappy but i just need the quiet time to re-group. i realize that i am jumping all over the place but thats the way my head is right now. my family is falling apart. my marriage is well.... i have no idea. we are trying, i guess. sexually i am incredibly frusterated, and i don't see that changing anytime soon- poor me. oh well- life goes on- right?! thats enough ranting for now- see ya

ok- well my father in law is still nuts. he stayed with us for a while and we did everything we could. then we had him committed and had to go to court to keep him there. then the asinine doctors decieded that he wasn't a danger to himself or anyone else and let him out. well he's not better and not taking his meds. we are currently not speaking to him. my sister in law finally admitted that she is a drug addict. prescription drugs and went to rehab. everything was great till she got out and started fighting with me, again. now jason my youngest nephew is screwed in the head. between seeing mommy occasionally and daddy being a dick he's really acting out and there is not much i can do about it. ryan on the other hand is fine. i have been seeing my baby nephew, damian alot. he and his dad, chris have been helping out and staying over occasionally. it has been really nice- but the s.i.l doesn't know because i don't want to deal with her or the fight it would cause. she already fought with me about him being here for maggie's first birthday. anyway- i started a job working with autistic children in september. it's ok but the money sucks- were not really making our bills. aside from my real life soap opera everything is fine. the girls are all good. my dad has been very helpful and my mom- well is my mom. it has been very nice having chris here to talk to and bitch to about the in laws. well for now
Have a Nice day!

i am still alive- yet i don't know how? anyway my father in law is getting worse he is back in the hospital. Although if he's there he can't ruin his life by takin' all the equity out of his house and it makes a really good case for his to not get fired since they don't believe he should have been out on medical leave. my nephews are coming in a week- and the house is still a wreck!! my electric got all fucked up because of the previous owner and it was out for 3 weeks- that meant no laundry, cooking, microwave, hot water, etc. well that sucked- but now it is over- $1350 later it is fixed- now all i have to do is convince the other bills i was supposed to pay that they really didn't want anything from me this month!!! ha ha ha so-i also have 2 tickets to pay that equal almost $300- yes that sucks- but that will teach me to speed in a minivan! so i also have some friends that i think are avoiding me and i am not sure why? this really hurts because i just opened my house to them- wasn't my fault the power went out- and if i did something to offend them i wish they would tell me because i am clueless!!! i am getting a bearded dragon next week for my nephews- yeah my mom has come home and says she is not going back to nebraska- now this is good and bad- bad because that meant an extra $500 a month for me renting out her house- good because i would miss her and so would the girls. speaking of money again- i still can't find a job!!!!! this is now becoming a desperate situation- if i don't get something soon i will not be able to pay anything!!! including the mortgage!!!!
and to top everything off my husband and i arn't getting along well at all- in fact i think there may end up being a divorce in my future!! well thats enough of my crap life- HAVE A NICE DAY!!!!

ok- my 4th was awesome- we went to ny and went to my cousins house. i had a great time- and so did the kids. rick had some alcohol and hung with the boys- don't think he's had that much fun in a while. we didn't get home until 2am.

my mother is in nebraska and who knows when and if she will come back? i know this will hurt my kids but she needs to be happy so maybe she will stop bitching so much.

for the first time in my life i am having trouble sleeping! tonite is the second time in a week. this is odd. i have never had a problem sleeing!! confused?!?!

maggie is 6mnths now!!

my ex is happy and this annoys me! yes its petty but i don't care. he should rot in hell!! anyone who hurts my kid should not breathe the same air that i do!!

today we got an awesome deal on a minivan!! yes- finally!! now if my nephews do come to live with me we don't have to take 2 cars to mcdonalds!! 5 kids- wow!! I am CRAZY!

rebecca is just so black and white- her moods change like the ny weather! i am getting a bit worried- maybe she's just that anal retentive!

on another note- i am disgusted with myself- my back still hurts, now my knees and ankles are bothering me and i wish i didn't have any mirrors in the house. i need to lose weight and i don't quite weigh enough for the weight loss surgery. ugh!!


well thats all the ranting for today!
catch ya later......

so i am back to work for the last 2 weeks- i am laughing at my ex's misery and i am tring to find a job for sept. (let me know if you know of anything). work is just how i remember it- nothin great other than that life has been pretty boring -oh and my daughters party went very well- all the kids had an awesome time
ta ta for now

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ok- so arielle went to dance competition this past weekend as did rebecca and arielle won 3 first place ribbons out of 4 dances. rebecca won 1 second place ribbon. it was a strssful and hectic weekend. now my priority has turned to fixing up the backyard for arielle's birthday party this sunday. anyway so i have been working myself to death- i am so achy and tired it is pathetic. then next weekend we have the dance recital- it just never stops!!! my scare with arielle was unounded- she was having tummy pain so we went in for her yearly check up earlier than usual- but every thing is fine- so that is a relief!! maggie is getting so big- she is almost 5 months old now- she is 16.5 lbs and 26inches. the doc says she is in her 75% in height and weight. i am still looking for work- preferably in new jersey- i don't want to be to far from home. and as far as i know 2 of my 3 nephews are coming to live with me as of aug- that is if my sister-in-law isn't to pissed off. i am going to miss my nephews first b-day party because it is on fathers day and rick doesn't want to drive an hour there and back- can't say i blame him- so she is all pissed off- but nobody told her to have it on fathers day! well i think thats my rant for now- please let me know if you think i am right or wrong about the party? thanks

today was a ong day- and dancing school is becoming ridiculos!!! i got there to take becca to class at 12:20 when class starts at 12:30 and the tickets for the recital were going on sale at 1:30 --do you know there was a ine almost around the block and the first persom had gotten there at 10:15 am- these are little kids- i mean come on people- it was just horrible-- anyway my ex moved back to SI today and was having a party tonite- they were supposed to put their new addy online but didn't for some reason- now i don't have an address for him and i doubt he will contact me to et me know- so i need to investigate a bit now- maybe i'll just take him back to court- i'm due for an increase in child support anyway and then he woud have to provide the new addy- anyway i'm just rambling and i'm very tired so good night to all and to alla good night!!!

well i was supposed to have company on sunday- they canceled!!
so i did nothing, just moped around, alone. i did find a bunch of new icons though, think i'm going icon crazy! so i sent one of my poems to a friend that is going to publish it in a college lit. magazine- cool. its one about my scum sucking ex and the way he has treated/ or hasn't treated his daughter. anyway i'm happy- they also have a pic of him they are going to photoshop and run next to the poem- i think its pretty funny-- anyway.... thats all folks...................

ok if anyone tell me one can tell me how to steal these quizzes and repost them on my journal please let me know- i tried and the link showed up but the meaning of my birthday got lost somewhere? oh well just trying it anyway
on a new note- THANK YOU JOHN JOHN!!!! if you read any of my past posts(hi shawn) then you know that my camera got broken by a friends son at a birthday party recently- well i had a warranty on it from sears and they told me to take it to their repair center- so i did that today. at the repair center the man told me that they do not send out digital cameras for repair so take it back to the store and they will have to give you a new one- well thats what i did and i got a brand new one- the original one was missing some of the software from the box since it was opened box when i bought it and now they gave me a brand new unopened one!!! yeah!!! so even though it took the better part of two hours to get done- with all the different paper work and such- it was well worth it.
anyway- i was supposed to have company on thursday that got pushed to friday that has now been slighted for tomorrow- so well see- just hope the kids don't totally wreck the house since i just got it cleaned- oh well.... anyway have a wonderful night everyone!!!